Frustrated with myself (now that's something that happens very often)

Soo... I should be studying. No, seriously I should. And yet, for some reason (read: I'm being LAZY) I'm doing everything but that.It's just one of these days when I feel so overpowered with the pressure of being supposed to do something that I just turn away and hide.

So yeah, I'm supposed to be studying, instead I'm watching/listening to Foster the People on Youtube... And feeling guilty about procrastinating. I should punish myself by taking a slide, topless on the harsh'n'cold snow outside (for all of you pervs that find this idea at least mildly attractive - what is wrong with you people??).

Instead I watched a video of Lana del Rey performing Video Games live of SNL... Just a disclaimer before I elaborate on the said performance, I do love Video Games, it's got a fresh retro-feel with not so bad lyrics. I've only heard this song on the radio before so I clicked on the mentioned live performance video with an opened mind, literally knowing nothing about the performer (apart from knowing she's female - something I couldn't determine listening to Sting's daughter, for example. Not that it's relevant, I just still can't come to terms with the fact that that voice belongs to a girl). Anyways, I watched the video, didn't like it, scrolled through the comments and read through all the hate and trolls.

On the one hand, I do think that her performance was terrible - she couldn't control her pitch, tried way too hard to sound all sultry and whispery and kind of forgot to sing while performing. Her movements were also very awkward and all. Yes, not a performance to be proud of but on the other hand, she seemed like someone pushed into a live gig too soon. Singing in front of a live audience in the studio, knowing you're on SNL, that all can add up to a lot of stress. And she was stressed, clearly, she had it written all over her face. I mean, I have my doubts if she can actually sing well, but I do see potential. I'd say give the kid some time and see what happens. And just at a side note - I think I liked her better not knowing what she looks like - wtf is with her lips? Silicone Hiroshima or what?

Now, I think I should either stop blogging and go to sleep or off to study a bit (and turn off Foster the People. Btw, I wonder why do I like skinny guys so much... there's something about their long legs and arms that really makes me attracted to them... yes, so now you know what I was doing today instead of studying - listening to a shitload of music and eyeing hipsters. I shall be off letting my guilt devour me alive).